InCoherent

So, I’m beginning to realize how random life is. I mean, we make decisions to guide it towards the direction we want but it’s inherently incoherent. We’re faced with random events and moments that have the power to change the course of our lives without warning or even being aware of the fact. Like if my grandma bought me that guitar when I was 8 for Christmas would I be somewhere different now?

So I guess I’m just now learning to take things as they come knowing that some will hurt and some I’ll cherish for years. I still need to work on not over thinking things though, that might take a bit more time.

So I shoot my thesis in a few months and I’m ridiculously excited about it. Just auditioned about 12 little girls a few days ago and I’m really excited so far. Can’t wait to see it, especially if it turns out like I see it in my head.

Also met some pretty crazy cool people lately. I feel like I’ve been very sheltered since being in LA and need to spread my wings a little. That’s proved to be kina interesting, not quite life changing yet but seeing a different side of LA and enjoying it too.

Well… Peace!

M.

sweet

So the most random cool thing happened a few days ago. I call a friend/ex i haven't spoken to in ages. She picks up I say a few words and realized she doesn't have my number so I say "do u even know who this is?" she says with no hesitation " of course I do Mbeng, I used to love you remember?" I thought that was the sweetest thing.

Also gonna be launching the site for my thesis project soon. You'll all get the link/email in the next week or so.

Peace!
B

Random

So I’m starving like crazy, but can’t think of one thing I can get to eat that I really like around here. I could use a good greasy Kabab right now, u know they call it ‘Kebob’ over here…. Who wants that? They even make it look all posh and shit.

So that leads me to… I think I’m searching for something in my life which I have no real hope of finding but not the strength to simply be happy with what I already know.

So I’m not really happy right now, not depressed either just… longing I guess. Also I’m beginning to realize I’m real emotional and even sensitive. A lot more than I thought, I mean I always knew I was passionate about pretty much anything I put my mind to and I guess they’re connected but I learned that at least.

So I’m now working on my thesis script which I’m enjoying enormously. I can’t wait to shoot it. I’m doing a website for it right now so you can all donate some money towards the process. I’m slowly going broke too but that’s a whole other story and hopefully temporary. Anywayzz I’ll send you guys the script soon enough, good news on that is this random guy contacts me saying he heard about it and wants to help out. He’s been sending me suggestion and recommendations which have all been great; he turns out to be the cinematographer for the tv show Entourage. So you guys better dig deep I need to raise a cool $10,000 actually that’ only about 5K :o). I shoot in December.

That’s all for now folks! Hope you’re all well. Love and miss u wankers (lol apparently that's a spelling error... wankers!, maybe I should add it to my dictionary :o)

Peace

M