The dreamer

so I was reminded of this quote today :

"A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world. Oscar Wilde"

I figured out just a few days ago how much of a dreamer I truly am. I see so much of my future that I feel I don't focus enough on the present. So I've decided to try and live for the present, hard as it may be given my love for control. As for how this will apply to my future film career I think it will open up some pretty interesting possibilities but I intend to dream as much as I can on that side of things. My personal life however I feel will greatly benefit from it.

Anywayzz
Peace
M.

P.s. Hello Human!

Luckiest guy alive

So how long do you hold out for what you’re so sure would be great for you? See I guess forever would be a great answer there and what I thought I’d do but I just can’t anymore. I almost feel like I’m letting life fly by waiting for you to see what I already know. Maybe I was wrong.

I wrote this earlier :

o I sit here, watching whoever make a move on you and I can only watch as you either turn them down, politely push them off or even flirt with them.

So I guess to some extent it's jealously. But I think it’s more not being able to step in, not that I would. Just having the option and to be able to say when required 'step back motha fucker, u don't know me like that :-]

So it occurred to me that no matter what my feelings towards you are, this is probably an unhealthy exercise, at least for the present.

Next thought!

I’m making the most incredible friends here. Like seriously I feel I’ve met some people that will ALWAYS be a part of my life. I’ll name them for ya!

There is Candice, who most of you already know and love. A genuinely nice person. You might not like her the first time you meet her, probably because she’s not in the mood but as you get to know her more you’ll discover some depth and truthfulness that will amaze you. In case you didn’t get that she’s also moody as hell :oP but you’ll love her for it.

There is Marie, the absolute sweetest person you’ll ever meet. She’ll talk your ear off given the opportunity but I promise you’ll smile through the experience. You’ll also never understand why she’s always so happy, and infectiously so too.

There is Jenny, now this is somewhat a wild card cuz I’ve only known her like 3 months or less. However in our short time together, I’ve met the most trusting, open and totally spontaneous chick. Also I shared a historic night with her when Obama became the first negro to be elected president in America!!!! How fucking awesome is that? In the same night I really got to know her, we had some seriously profound conversations and I learnt a great deal about her and myself.

Those are real names by the way, you should all meet someday :o)

Also I’m way closer to my family in America, but seriously that’s a whole blog on its own. I guess in conclusion I’m one of the luckiest guys in the world. It doesn’t always feel that way but I’m happy and having the time of my life.

Peace and Love

MBN.